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Saturday, 14 November 2009

  • && I’m sitting here rehearsing all the things I’ll never say

    At the end of the day, the fact that we have the
    Courage to still be standing is reason enough
    To celebrate
     
     
    We scream our insecurities but mutter our apologies.
    And that's why this world will always be so wrong.
     
     
    Seeing him was like hearing an old song
    That came on the radio. Bringing up so
    Many old feeling and memories that you
    Can’t tune them out
    　
     
    It’s hard to wait around for something that
    You know might never happen, but it’s even
    Harder to give up when you know it’s
    Everything you’ve ever wanted.
    　
     
    And I’m sitting here rehearsing all the things
    I’ll never say
    　
     
    Have you ever had that empty feeling inside
    of you like no one cares or loves you
    Back;; as if you cried; no one would be
    There to wipe your tears
     
    　
    I won’t ever forget. That’s what pisses me off
    The most. He’ll always be apart of my heart
    It’s too hard to let go now; that’s not even an option
     
    　
    And nobody ever thought she would be the
    kind of girl to cry herself to sleep at night
     
    　
    Dear diary, remind me never to judge how
    Well I know someone. Because the person I
    Thought I knew best, I don’t even know anymore
    　
     
    She tries to stay away from him. But It’s
    So hard not knowing that it doesn’t make a
    Difference whether she’s right in his face or
    A thousand miles away.
     
     
    And that boy still makes me smile even
    Thought I’ll never admit it
    　
     
    She’s the girl with her hands in her pocket,
    Staring at her feet. She’s the girl you never
    Knew you loved
    　
     
    I’m not sad. I just want to trust someone so
    Badly. I just want something beautiful to
    Happen here, right now.
     
    　
    She hides herself with music. She never shows
    Her feelings; always keeping things bottled
    Up inside. I’d hate to see the day she
    Exposes it all. When she tells you how you’ve
    Made her feel, you’ll never be able to look
    At her the same way every again. Never.
     
    　
    I need a reason to stay here; I need a reason
    to wake up and not care that it’s raining
     
     
    sorry no pictures :D busy day today.
    going to see my marines recuriter && getting
    a chinchilla!! :) super excited.

Saturday, 10 October 2009

  • good enough.

    it kills me when you say i love you
    because then i have to say i love you too
    and i dont think i really mean it

     

    i wish i could love him like i love you
    but the thing is no one gets me like you do

     

    "im so sick of crying" she told him, the tears
    were about to fall again.
    "im sick of trying" he replied. hes eyes
    full of regret and sadness.

     

    i miss our conversations, your sweet words before bed.
    your still my boyfriend, its just that our love is dead

     

    we barely talk anymore. we're both too busy being teenagers.
    with anyother guy this would have bothered me but strangly
    a text before bed, an i love you, is good enough for me

     

    his "i love you's" seem forced, without meaning.
    like theres someone else he'd rather be saying them to

     

    i hope you see his name in my profile.
    i hope it hurts like hell when you see it.
    i hope when your with him, your know he's
    texting me the sweet words you never said
    i hope you realize your no longer my last kiss
    your no longer mine, i hope you realized all this
    and then i hope you miss me .

     

    your confusing boy ;;
    every time i talk to you, you flirt with me.
    every time i see you, you smile.
    but i know you dont like me </3

     

    there's always that one boy that every girl
    wants to be with, and that one boy secretly
    loves the girl that has given up on him forever

Tuesday, 15 September 2009

  • Tell me why this guilt feels all too familiar.

    its like a long distance relationship, but your
    sitting right here beside me

     

    i told him not to wait for me. he knows im
    in a relationship i dont want to lose.
    he told me not to be silly, that he would
    wait forever if he had to

     

    it must mean something when my phone vibrates
    and i sit they're praying its you & it always it.

     

    my mom looked at me when i got home
    "your in love" she said, it was a statement
    "your too young to be in love"

     

    his "i love you's" seem forced, without meaning.
    like theres someone else he'd rather be saying them to

     

    im always exepcting to hear those fatal words
    " we need to talk" and the dreaded sentences that follow.
    even though you never do tell me its over, your actions
    imply that the love we once had is slowing fading away

     

    it scares me how i haven't got tired of you yet.
    how after more than 2 months you still     give me butterflies
    and when we kiss i can still feel something in the pit of my stomach

     

    when a girl gets mad your supposed to care.
    your supposed to be upset that shes mad.
    not it ingore it thinking she'll get over it. when a
    girl gets mad, it because she wants to see if
    you love her enough to stop being macho and care

     

    & i'd never tell you this; but now that i finally have you
    i am so scared to lose you <3

     

    do your nights feel incomplete without our phone calls?
    mine do.
    and do your eyes feel like they're burning out of your skull?
    mine too.
    is it just our little routine that we're missing so bad?
    or is it the fact that we're both losing the
    best thing that we ever had?

     

    To get up in the morning only to know
    that you will have to face another
    obstacle takes strength. To smile when
    the only thing you can do is cry takes bravery.
    To act happy & laugh when you know
    that times are at their worst takes courage.
    To be joyous when the only good news is
    best of the bad news takes support.
    To be there & help others through
    the roughest times in life takes love.



    this is for the girls who don't always win,
    who stay up all night listening to music that     inspires them
    the girls that laugh, smile, cry and think all on a daily basis
    the girls who like, learn, and regret the girls who may never have it     easy
    the girls who learn the hard way and live to tell about it the     real girls



    if you see me walking with someone else its
    not because i love them,
    its because you werent there to walk with me.
    if i fall in love with someone else,
    its not because i wanted to,
    but because you werent there to     catch me.


    its sad when you
    go from Best Friends
    to complete     strangers


    I never thought I`d end up here,
    I never thought I`d be standing where I am..
    I guess I kind of thought it would be easier than this..

     

    Happy two months Tyler!!
    : )

Monday, 14 September 2009

Saturday, 12 September 2009

  • they say they're too young but maybe they're just too old to remember

    retro.jpg retro image by valerivill182

    What kind of world do we live in that an underage kid can go to the health dept. and get birth control and condoms with out parental consent, but you can go get your ears pierced with out consent. CRAZY!!

    Heres your quotes,

    feedback is nice. <3

     

    01.

    shes an artist who paints pretty pictures
    execpt her canvas is her wrist
    her paintbrush is a razor
    and the paint her her blood

    -fav. ♥

    02.

    no, im not going to die without you
    yes, i can live without you
    i wont be truely happy with any other guy
    they wont make me feel the same as i do for you
    but im can survive, i will suvive.

     

    03.

    && she fell in love with lies and memories
    you would've thought the truth & reality would
    tear her apart but instead, she fell in love even more

     

    04.

    im sorry i love you!
    is that what you want me to say?
    you want me to apoligize for the way i feel.

     

    05.

    of course i like him. but i love him.
    he's really nice.     i love the way he makes me feel.
    hes really cute.     i fall in love with his eyes every day
    i think of him a lot.     hes always on my mind.
    i dont want to lose him. i want him more then anything.

     

    cherry-swimsuit-retro-one-piece.jpg Pin up bathing suit image by Th3_L1ttL3_M3rMa1D

     

    06.

    shes happy. completly & truely happy.
    sure life has its faults
    but thats no reason not to be happy

    -Quotes make everything sound so easy.

     

    07.

    hey there babe, don't mean to cut you off
    but i've heard enough lies & you're dying to get caught

     

    08.

    it's time for you to understand --
    stop getting up for the let down;
    oh, who you are is not up to them.

     

    09.

    Too many people are thinking of security
    instead of opportunity; they seem to be
    more afraid of life than death.

     

    10.

    Before it's final, before you close the door,
    I am asking you, please, can we try this once
    more    . Just hold me tight, don't ever let go.
    And if never comes around I want you to know.

     

    retro-3.jpg Jump. image by CamiPoc

    11.

    Come after me when I run away,
    call me back when I hang up on you,
    tell me I'm perfect when I'm mad at myself,
    & don't let me slip away when I leave.

     

    12.

    I know exactly how that is.
    To love somebody who doesn't deserve it.
    Because they are all you have.
    Because any attention is better than no attention.

     

    13.

    this is the first time i've written out your name.
    this is the last time that i'll ever feel the same.
    maybe i said too much, but i don't care.
    you're acting like i'm still not there.

    14.

    14.The best kind of kisses are unexpected,
    unplanned ones. The ones that come naturally,
    like in the middle of a sentence

     

    15.

    Let's start over. Let's forget all our problems. Let's put our past
    behind us & never bring it up again. We can't live or love the
    past. Let's throw all our problems away. I'll give you my trust, if
    you give me yours. Baby, let's fall in love.. the right way

    RETRO-1-1.jpg retro image by nikolitaz

    well,

    Im bored. :)

    My baseball team won

    GO REDS!

    GO BUCKS!!!!

    :)

    have a good day.